I don’t ever want to forget the way you laugh.
Or the way you speak.
Or how you stand when you’re talking.
Or how passionate you are about what you love.
Or how you make me laugh with the simplest things.
It feels like it’s been forever.
Let’s see each other again soon, please?
Honestly, I feel like writing the post with all caps HAHAHA. But no, I won’t spam your eyes :P
So I was watching the finals from the very 1st minute, moving from the dining room to my parents’ bedroom, got scolded by Mom and all but it was all worth it! SPAIN.WON. IDRGEASCDVFE
Mom ended up watching the 2nd half with us while working on her 500-piece puzzle as well :)) me and Mom shouted loudly when Iniesta scored LOL.
The feeling of seeing Spain win is indescribable. The fact that I wanted so much Spain to win because Holland kicked Brazil out of World Cup and the fact that it actually happened is just… surreal. De Jong kicked Alonso and I think that deserved a trophy for Spain. God, those Spanish hotties aren’t whining and that’s what I like the most about them. When they got kicked, they stood back up without questioning anything anymore :))
Anyway, both team played great.
it’s been exactly a week since I last posted something here.
and I think it’s kind of funny how too many things happened in only 7 days.
From the hectic, pleasure crowd of IYC Fest in Salihara, I learned how to move on and let go. I learned that loving someone doesn’t mean you have to spend all your life for them; the best way is to let it flow, don’t force anything because you might get the chance to meet new amazing people and it would be a waste if you keep focusing on that particular someone. Just relax and if you and him were meant to be, nothing is going to beat that :P
From my cousins’ visit, I learned how to be thankful. My life is so much better than them, I’m gifted with so many things… I just didn’t realized them. I’ve always been wondering how the heck they could happily live without too many facilities — I’d be positively dying of boredom if I were them. Then I found out the key to enjoy life as it is… is just taking life, well… as it is. I mean, sure, those people are greater than me. Some people live the way I’ve always wanted to live. Some people could really buy anything, anytime. Some people are just effortlessly beautiful. But there are always people who are lesser than all those glams… and to be put in the right position, I should really be thankful. I’m not too rich to forgot how to be thankful and I’m not too poor to always have to look up and feel envious. My cousins aren’t poor, of course — but from them I learned a lot of things and I’m forever thankful.
From the departing of my cousins… I learned how to let go. I gave away my laptop to Mas Bowo and I didn’t feel sad AT ALL. I felt empty and a bit of losing, sure, but hell no, I’M NOT SORRY. I’m glad that now the laptop is on the right hands and I’m sure Mas Bowo will treasure the laptop probably a bit too much that I did ;)) besides, Dad is going to buy me a new one :P
I don’t really know how to describe all of these things in words. I’m just thankful that I get to learned all of these important stuffs right before I turn 18 :)
- So many fishes in the sea, you know.
- Yeah, but he's the fish I've always wanted.
…well, I miss you right now. How’s that sound?
…by showing cute Super Junior’s faces,
memorably motivational quotes,
and funny pictures :)
with only one goal against Holland’s 2 goals. The first goal from Holland was lucky, they didn’t even have to do anything — THEY DIDN’T EVEN SCORE THEIR 1ST GOAL!
I’m too frustrated I even lost my appetite to food.
Yesterday was exactly 18 months since we knew each other.
Funny how I remember the precise date we knew each other… and it’s even funnier how often I lost the count of how many days we’ve spent together, chatting about random stuffs and got mad at each other for uselessly ridiculous reasons.
remember 3 days ago, when I told you I was so cranky and minutes passed without you saying anything? I was very disappointed. Just when I thought you didn’t care, I was about to sign out but then you asked me a simple ‘why?’ and I was speechless. I didn’t tell you my whole burden (because I don’t know where to start) but you told me things as if you were really there since the very beginning; as if you were in my shoes. As if you could understand all of those insecure feelings without me having to tell you from A-Z.
It’s as if you could understand my silent words.
Knowing you as the most ignorant guy I’ve ever known, I felt really… overwhelmed reading those motivational words you gave me. HAHAHA.
I told you how I was sobbing in front of my laptop because I can’t hold it anymore, and the next second I laughed so hard reading what you typed next, so it’s like I was crying while laughing at the same time.
I gotta admit I love how you made me feel both opposite feelings of frustrated yet happy at the same time :)
So, on the H+1 of our 18 month since we knew each other…
thank you. Very, very much. For silently being there and supporting me through hard times. Sometimes I didn’t realize the way you’ve been there for me at the time but when I look back silently everytime before I sleep… you’ve always been there, sometimes in the most annoyingly unusual way, sometimes in the most half-casual mostly-ignorant way… but still…
You’ve been there.
and I thank you for that.
…and mostly, I thank God for sending in someone like you to fill some blank spots in me. I’m taught to be patient and tolerate all kinds of bad habits HAHAHA :P
thank you for being such an amazing friend for the last 18 months :)